There's nothing wrong with my name.
If you think you know me, read my blog and think again.
I'm imperfect and I'm Lovin' It.
I'm the only witness and the only person who can judge my life.
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Imma BSN student.taken by the most amazing guy "MINE"RICHARDCARR.determined.studios.
vain.sweet.real.loyal.purple and pink is love.promises means alot so dnt ever break it.
ol i want is for one guy to prove to me that they're not d same.
Santa Claus won't make me happy
With a toy on Christmas day I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you
oooohhh it's been a wyl..ehehehe.. i dnt feel lyk updating my site, coz i'm so bc wid my skul works.. tsk2.. to d point dat it causes me to have migraine.. wen i checked my site, my last post was last jan. 14? wahahhaha wat a shame! ahahaha.. tsk2.. and it's already feb. 5? oh cmon! tym runs so fast ayt.. well well well.. i had a memorable month wid mine last january.. coz i've talked to him almost everyday... and im super happy! it gives me butterflies again..but so sad, feb 3 at exactly 9:20 pm was my last chat wid mine through ym and im still on d process of adjusting ryt now, coz i miss talking to him :( he'll call me nlng daw, coz he's strict dad, came home already..hahaiz.. and oh? i forgot, one of d reason y i wasn't able to update too, was my mom was admitted to d hospital last jan. 18, and i need to take care of her, and i dnt even have enuf rest dat tym, coz i also have skul stuffs to work on.. i dnt even know how to manage my tym dat tym coz after skul i have to go to d hosptal again and i also have to take care of my sis who is left in our house wid our maid...so skul, hosptal, house, hosptal ganon ka bc ung lyf q! wew! and she stayed almost 1 wik at d hosptal, but thank God, she's ok now..
Nweiz, tomorrow is our 8 monthsary..hahaiz.. i dnt feel lyk making a letter, coz i dnt know f he appreciates it.. i dnt even know if he lyks d video dat i made it for him during our 7th monthsary... ayoq na din mag salita, gusto q more on deeds nlng coz actions speak louder dan words sabi nga nla dba.. ewan, we'll juz call each oder tomorrow..
here's d ecard dat my bf's mom cnd it to me..his mom, dad, 3 sisters and him, and nasali pa tlga pic q? ahahahha..it has a background music, o christmas tree.. how i wish i cud post it here as to it's original ecard, but i can't find d code...tsk2..tita, tenx! so sweet, and i really appreciate it! hugs and kisses..
waaahh dis is juz a proof na wala kaming magawa! ahahhaha.. nauubusan din kami ng topic minsan, kaya juz for fun eto ung gnagawa namin sa doodle art sa ym..hekhek.. drawing moments wid mine again.. :)
it's been a wyl since i haven't posted a new blog! ahahahah sori, juz got bc last wik and dis wik since it's already our midterms wik, and still have to prepare for it, for our exams! yeah! rule for dis wik? break a leG! ehehehhe..
nweiz here's d list of wat i did:
JAN. 6- it's our 7th monthsary wid mine.. i made a vid. for him and a thank u letter, i dnt know if he appreciates it! ahahahaah but i took an effort wid it despite of being so busy in skul! i even sacrifice not to memorize my assignment dat tym..hekhek.. nweiz, we talked first on YM den he called me after.
JAN 7- got commented wid our prof. for getting a grade of A in his subject and also to my fwnd rem, i tot it was a sarcastic question wen he asked us f, are we a serious students?, den i answered proudly YES! ahahahah ang weird q tlga! eh totoo naman tlga na serious kami ni rem sa subject nya coz we even sacrificed to sleep late juz to gain high grades...but nweiz, he gave me dat piece of paper, and wen i read it! OH MY! i can't even believe it! ahaahahah i looked up to him as in to d highest level! he's such an intelligent creature! hahahahaha.. and i didn't expect na ganon ung grades na makukuha namin.. nweiz! super happy! i guez, after ol our undying efforts, we deserve such grade! ehehhe nagtxt c mine, and i'm still at skul dat tym, he wants to talk to me..but still have class..so i went outside to call him for a wyl to inform him dat i'll juz call him as i've promised him after my class.after our dismissal, we ate wid my fwnds, and i can't say no, bka kc magtampo na naman c Eff, if i'll reject his invitation.ahahahah tagal din namin d nag bond ulit coz we're so busy in skul...i've chatted to mine at 10:25pm..
JAN.8- i had an argument wid my mom! waaahh as always nlng bah? tsk2.. i haven't talked to her for 4 days! i juz locked myself in my rum..ahahaha.. bad! but, we're finally ok now.. wana know y? we'll it's a nonsense fyt! i can't even figure it out, f wat's wrong wid it! holy crap! wyl playing pet society on my facebuk account, napasabi q na "bobo!" wyl facing my laptop, coz i lose during d game! loser much? ahahah yeah a bit! den mom acted so weird! and she nags at me! and i didn't answered him back, i was juz asking her, f wat's wrong f i say "bobo!" i mean, it's not a bad word! lyk s#!+!...gawD! i was really pissed dat day! i guez every thurs. was a bad day for me.. ang malas q pa sa skul! coz, we weren't able to take our quiz for being late again! coz it's not a new issue again..it's our 1st subj. prof's fault again! hahaiz.. 2009 na? magbago naman sana xa! i hope she'll b more tym conscious! coz nadadamay na ung ibang subjects q! since we we're pissed! i told rem, dat maybe we'll juz hang out at d mall, coz i want to forget wat happend.. kainis kc! 2am aq natulog juz to study.. hahaiz! tas aun, nung gumabi,i was pissed again wid my mom! d q napigilan,umiyak aq..ewan,i've talked to my bez and rem.. tenx girls! for always being der for me.. i called mine, for a wyl, but umiiyak lng aq, d aq makapagsalita! bka ano pa masabi q.. evrytym i hear his voice i find comfort..wat's important is we're ok now wid my mom... nxt topic na nga! hahaiz..
JAN. 9- nerd mode dis tym.. and d whole day i juz lock myself in my rum... may tv naman at music, so d na din aq bored..ehehehhe but d pa kami na uusap ni mama dis tym kaya aq nagkulong sa kwarto..
JAN. 10- i've chatted wid mine at 9:28am -12:02pm.. weeeii..we had fun! nag drawing kc kami ulit using doodle art sa ym..ahaha wana try? aw u shud! ehehehhe it's kewl!
JAN.11- chat wid him again, at 10:48am... drawing2x again!
JAN. 12- my mom already talked to me..we went to d mall..den after dat, back to nerd mode ulit..study..study..study... 2am sleeping tym.. sobrang lamig at walang tigil ung ulan since last wik pa..graveh tlga dinulot ung baha..tsk2
JAN. 13- i've chatted mine for a wyl at 9:56 pm, since he'll be going to work na.. i'm not xpcting to chat wid him, it was juz a coincidence! ehehehhe..coz rem texted me,nagcng tuloy aq, asking sumthing about skul stuffs, and wen i opened my ym, poof! c mine ung nag msg. ahahahha..tagal q nakatulog again, 2am na kaya wat i did, nag review nlng aq ulit for my xams.. coz everytym i close my eyes, ung brain q d pa din tumitigil kaka memorize sa mga pinagaralan q na topics..ahahahaha..weirD! gggrrr...
JAN. 14- today? aw!bbbbrrr... wata cold morning! and i have to wake up early since i'll b having my exams at 7:30 am! yes! so early ayt? i even wish to sleep again! ahahahah.. ang lamig kc, sarap pa matulog.. but no choicE! so aun, i woke up at 5:30 supposedly, but again! ahahahah gncing aq ni rem! waaaahhh ang aga! 5am ata un!tsk2.. she called me! and juz expressing herself out from d bad weather..waaahhh..ahahahaha.. naantok pa aq, after she called me, aun! i took a bath nlng.. even if it's not yet 5:30 am.. den off to skul! and took my 1st exam! waaahhh..after taking it, we recieved a forwarded txt from our skul dat our nxt exam will all be cancelled since cdoc is facing dis harsh and merciless natural calamities! lol.. flash flood. tsk2.. ung water sa building pumapasok na sa 2nd floor.. graveh! tas ung wind, nako! wata whirlwind! sobrang lamig! and delikado din kc sa campus namin, kc maraming trees.. den we ate wid my fwnds... and we went home after buying medicines.. and i've chatted to mine, at 10:13 am here.. wooaahh..sabi nya d xa mag OL? lol.. but nweiz, i'm glad! eheheheh.. coz i missed him! :D ang sweet ng mom nya! ahahahah she sent me an ecard, ang cute! it contains der family pix, and included pa tlga ung pix q?..ahahahah shocking! ehehehe but really! i appreciated it! so sweet.. lub dub...lub dub..ahhhahaha.. oh how i wish i cud post it on my fs profile or blogger..but xo sad, i can't..walang codes eh..eheheheh.. tsk2.. so i juz saved it on my yahoomail..hhhmmm happy day! :D
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
7 mos. and still counting @ 1/06/2009 12:29:00 PM
I just want you to know how happy am I to have you in my life and I thank God for that. Thank you for the love and the joy you bring. You've changed my life.
You're the only boyfriend who gives my heart some excitement and thrills. When I spend tym talking wid u I feel like I'm out of control! You taught me how to handle life seriously, you taught me how to solve my problems and to face it without any fear... when I'm with you, I feel no fear, not even a single one.
I know that when you say you love me and I admit that I've fallen for you, I know that I wouldn't shed any tears from now on. I love you and that's what I want you to bear in your mind, and it's for keeps. The first time I heard you say the words, "I love you", it was like I’ve been taken to Cloud 9 and I haven't gone down until now. Right after you uttered those words I asked myself, "Do I love you?", and as I search for the answer, I again asked: have you give me any reasons not to? No. I then realized that I have already fallen in love with you, and yes ... I am so in love with you, MINE!
In the past, I had always yearned for someone to love, to cherish and to take good care of - to whom I would share my dreams with and make them come true. I'd always walked around feeling so empty with a hole in my heart that I thought would never get filled... You filled that hole. I think back to how empty my life was without you, and I am so grateful that you are here. I have found in you what it means to "love." I tell you a million times a day, each day that I love you. Although you reciprocate these feelings, I am sure that you have no inkling of the magnitude of exactly what they mean to me. You may not even realize it. Each day I’m falling more in love with you. I love you more and more with each passing day. And it eases me to know that as tomorrow approaches, I will love you more than yesterday and tomorrow will be more than today. You are really God's gift to me ... my answered prayer that I will forever cherish in my heart.
You are the most wonderful, kind, compassionate, romantic, sensible, intelligent, talented, kind-hearted, thoughtful, congenial, affectionate, appreciative, loyal, caring, loving, passionate, handsome and an incredible man I have ever met and I thank God everyday that you are mine! I love you with my whole existence, my whole life and nothing in this world can take that away! I love you more than I could ever explain. More than I even understand. You touched my heart in ways no one could ever comprehend.
I just have to give this to you and I have to do this for myself, for you, and for us. Today, I give my life to you - my heart, my mind, my body and my soul ... I belong to you now and forever.
This may start sounding like a poem ... I don't know. I just wanted to let you know that you are my heart, my everything, and the other half of my soul, that I love you with everything I have and hold. Now, when I look towards the future, you are always pictured there. Maybe, in this lifetime, you will never know how much I love, care and cherish you. Your love gives me the feeling that the best is still ahead. I can't wait to spend forever with you. Words cant express the meaning of the smiles that you put upon my face! Day after day you light my world with your brightness! Thank you so much for being such a wonderful part of my life!
HAPPY 7th monthsary! Iloveyousomuch! xoxo
Sunday, January 4, 2009
my greatest secret revealed! @ 1/04/2009 11:45:00 PM
i can't sleep! hohum.. something's bothering me..did u ever had a secret in ur lyf dat no one really knows about it even to d people who's really close to u, except u alone? i bet, you too! but i can't keep dis as a secret forever.. it's my greatest secret of ol tym!..and i dn't know f i have d courage to write a post bowt it here but i have to let it out.. nweiz...my parents, fwnds, even my best fwnd (sori bez, f i didnt told u bowt it) or anyone closest to me didn't even know..ever wondered y i only shared dis one now? it's bcoz i'm not yet ready to open it up before coz i still can't accept it and i can't find d courage and d pain is still der!.. but now dat i had finally moved on, i'm ready to share it, but i'm posting dis it's bcoz i'm not ready to face MARCH-MAY 2009... Y? bcoz, it made me recall of a painful tragedy dat ever happened to me.. so painful dat i even wanted to commit suicide coz i can't bear ol d pain anymore..or shud i say, i almost got insane after d tragedy... OH MY! i dnt want to cry now... sniff.. but i know i can do dis! (to have d courage to share it wid u).. Coz dis APRIL 2009 wud b d 1st death anniversary of my ex.. my 5th x.. everytym a guy wud court me and asked me how many x's do u have already? i decrease it to 1 (meaning he's not counted) y? bcoz it's so painful, and i juz want to think of it as if i've never met him in my lyf.. no one knows about our relationship, he's d only boyfriend (x bf) dat i didn't told my parent's bowt it.. it doesn't mean dat i'm not proud of him dat he's my bf, it's juz dat we decided to keep our relationship for some reasons i can't even tell it here... but we do have serious reasons y we have to kept our relationship... we're juz looking for d ryt timing and d ryt tym to tell it to our parents, but we really do have plans to tell dem, it's juz dat it's not yet d ryt tym to reveal everything...
I've known him before, but we're still fwnds dat tym, until fate brought us together to bcome close wid each oder, not as juz fwnds, but a more intimate one, intimate in d sense dat it's a more private and a close personal relationship as to b kept secretly. he courted me and after 1 month of courting me, since i known him before, i've decided dat i'll agree to his proposal dat he'll b my boyfriend. I dnt have d rison not to love him, simply bcoz, he's d type of guy every girl wud admire not juz physically, but bcoz of his attitudes.. Wat i can't really forget about him is his thoughtfulness.. As in! u feel lyk heaven! u'll see stars and everything! u feel lyk ur d happiest girl in d world thinking dat he wud b ur last! dat's wat i felt for him dat tym wen i fell in love wid him.. We both shared a locker in skul, and we even have a duplicate keys..sweet enuf? hhhmm hindi lng yon! everyday, wyl he was still courting me, or even until d tym dat he was already my bf, he won't forget to left me a NOTE wid a cute stuffs lyk a small bear wid a piece of NOTE on it and left it on our locker... and everyday i always wear dis big SMYL on my face bcoz of his sweetness, he keeps reminding me and showing me how much he love me! We were so happy back den, but we never show it off in public or i mean to our fwnds or classmates or skulmates dat we both have a relationship, and dey never noticed it either. Everytym i had my problems i run up to him and share it to him and he juz ryt away take ol my sadness..Everytym i cried, if i had dis problems bowt my studies, lyk i'm not contented wid my scores or wat, he always told me, "watever happens! juz believe in urself dat u can do it! and watever happens, always pursue ur dreams to bcome a nurse, i know it's ur ambition eversince, and i trust u, dat u can achieve it, juz dnt give up i'm always here.." waaahh huhuhu..awts! those were d words dat keeps me reminding of him!
Days passed by so quickly it was d tym for us to celebrate our 1st monthsary which was on MAY 18 2008. I had dis big expectation bowt it dat it wud b d happiest day ever in my whole lyf.. Wen i checked our locker, i found a note again, dat says, see you later! but i'm not used to it coz he used to give me a bear, i was shocked coz he left a note wid 3 roses dat tym... little did i know dat, dat was d last tym i'll b recieving surprises from him! I still had my duty dat tym during our OJT at d hospital and our duty tym is about to end. I recieved a call from him dat he'll pick me up at home, so I told him, i juz have to take a bath again since i'm juz off from my duty at d hospital at dat tym and i myt spreading d virus, so and so. and dat i have to change my clothes and ol. And he said, i'll wait for u.. den i dropped d fone and went home to fix myself.. i was really excited but later on, i felt nervous! i dnt know y.. it was raining at dat tym, he called me again and told me he'll be coming already to pick me up. rain or shine we wud still celebrate our 1st monthsary! i've waited for him, 1 hour had passed, i was worried y he's not yet coming, i was a bit upset, and bit angry coz i thought he broke his promised to me, but i was wrong! he had an accident! an accident dat took his lyf! huhuhu.. suddenly he was taken away from me! worst thing is, it's forever! i can never have him again, after dat tragedy, i can't even find myself, i was still in a shock, and i got really depress.. i felt lyk my happiness is gone juz lyk a snap of my fingers! i was a mess after he left me, after he died.. i even blame GOD! and i'm really sorry.. maybe bcoz it was really a mixed emotion i felt during those days.. hatred for loosing him, and too much love i felt for him dat u want it to b forever but it's too way impossible now dat he died. I've cursed my lyf during dat tym dat i dnt even want to live.. During his burial, i even didn't go, i dn't have d courage to see him wid his body on his coffin, coz it hurts! it's lyk my heart was stabbed a thousand times everytym i can recall d days wen der was still me and him. Wat hurts me most is i've never stand for our love! coz i dnt have d chance already to introduce him to my parents.. it's too late! dat's d greatest regret dat i've done in my entire lyf! i keep ol his notes dat he left from me, all d cute bears dat he gave it to me i put it in a box and burry it.. i want to forget dat painful memory, a misfortune indeed!..I really tot dat tym dat he's d guy, God wants me to have in my future.. but ol of a sudden i was broken again into pieces...i often had my heart attacks at dat tym but my parents tot dat d reason y i had dat frequent attacks it's bcoz of my stressful lyf in skul, and wen my fwnds texted me or called me if i'm juz ok, coz i've never texted dem or d na daw aq napaparamdam sa knila w/c is dey'r not used to it coz often times i used to text dem.. i didn't answer der calls or texts.. i've not yet fully recovered after d tragedy.. t'was totally hard!i've locked myself in my room, wid no one to talked to.. my parents started to bother bowt it, but i juz kip silent and for 2 weeks i'm loosing my appetite and my lyf started to bcome miserable!.. even until now, dey don't know bowt my 5th x..
Then came Jake, who is also a fwnd of mine, and bcame my 6th bf and now my x. he courted me, but we only lasted for 6 days, bcoz i felt so unimportant to him! unlike wid my 5th bf who died.. i can't feel dat he even exist in my lyf after i agreed to have a relationship wid him.. for me he's not a bf! but it's just a waste of my tym! i loved him but he juz took me for granted.. i was fervently praying dat tym, talking to my 5th x, dat f God didnt allow us to last long, i hope he wud help me find a guy who wud love me for real, a guy whom i cud love forever. I want to bring back d old me, d smile and d aura, i mean d whole thing about me! d real me! coz i don't even know myself dat tym already...i guez my prayers wer answered! den Richard came into my lyf.. my present bf.. c MINE.. wen i was still in a relationship wid Jake i've started to talked to Richard already.. until he told me, i can still recall d tym wen he was about to court me, i honestly told him dat i'm into a relationship now, but it seems lyk it was anoder messy relationship to have Jake in my lyf! he's such a burden! and he said, i'm willing to wait for u until d tym u wud break up wid Jake, den i'll be courting u. I was shocked! coz before, i felt something for him, i guez it's juz a type of a crush or liking him dat tym, since he's still in a relationship wen i know about him. so i never really expect to have him even after he also broke up wid his ex gf after months had passed. June 2008 i broke up wid Jake, den i accepted Richard to b my bf... weeeii.. my tragic lyf has ended! MINE, changed me! he gives new meaning to my lyf...a lyf i tot i lost forever... he's my lyf now..i've never been dis happy now and i'm finally contented wid MINE and everything bowt him! i felt lyk all is in place now... i had finally moved on (for sure!) , and i hope MINE wud b my last guy nah, i hope i cud spend d rest of my days wid him.. coz i dnt know how to face lyf again, w/o him, if our relationship wud end...i love MINE so much lyk i've never loved any1 before..I told him bowt my 5th x who died but i didn't told him d details bowt wat happened... but even if i only spent 1 month wid my 5th x, he'll always b a special memory to me..a memory dat i'll always treasure on my treasure chest..i've learned from him, and i wont b making d same mistakes dat i did before dat i'll b regretting it again..everytym i opened my locker, i miss seeing it wid surprises from him (my 5th x) and d note and little teddies he used to give me..aw.:'( if only der's internet in heaven, i hope he cud read dis blog dat i made, so he wud know how thankful i am, for coming into my lyf even if t'was juz for a moment... :'(
talked to his sister and mom... @ 1/04/2009 10:24:00 AM
great week for me! yipppeeeyy!!! ahahahahah.. i've never been dis happy before! swear.. lol.. we always keep in touch! and i'm glad, kc close2x na kami ng mom nya at sis nya.. but i'm still shy to talk to dem..ahahahaha.. juz dis morning i've talked to his sister, and so wid his mom... i really had fun talking to dem! eheheheh.. but wala c MINE pumunta sa party, his mom told me.. ehehhehe pwo ok lng..kung saan xa masaya! ahahhaha.. i'm still happy coz i've talked to his family.. haiz.. super IN LOVE na ata aq! ahahahhaha.. aw.. nweiz, skul stuffs na naman? malapit nanaman ang class, back to skul again! but i still want to enjoy d break! ahahahah.. kakapagod! i'm not yet ready...coz i never thought ganon pala ka haba ung i memorize namin! OH GAWD! help! kaya easy2x lng at pa relax2x nlng aq dis past few days trying to enjoy d break, kc i dnt fyl lyk looking at my books or doing my assignments! ahahhaah kaya eto tuloy! maloloka nanaman aq nito! wooot! cum wat may na! ahahahahhaa.. ayoq pa tlga pumasok! ahhahahaha... nxt nxt wik midterms wik na naman! d hell! ganon ka bilis ung tym! woot! den summer, oh my! back to duty na naman aq sa OJT namin sa ospital..woot! anoder pagsubok nanaman..haiz! i'll be seeing my C.I's again! rawr! torture etoh! ahahahhha..
< i've talked to MINE again..10:28 am - 1:58 pm to b exact..eheheh.. i had fun! and he got new pix! weeeiii.. love it! pwo ang sama nya! huhuhuhu.. he made me cry! ahahahaha.. coz hindi xa naniniwala sakin! amf! kainis! kaya umiyak aq..huhuhu.. kaw tlga! bawal pa naman aq umiyak..baka nxt tym f paiyakin mo q, baka mawawalan ka na ng MINE moh..ayaw pa kc maniwala! hmpf! nweiz, dis s wat really happend, last nyt, ung makulit qng x nakuha na naman nya ung YM q, darn! kc binigay ng cuzn nya..hahaiz! kaya nga aq nag change ng YM account kc i want to forget d past... i admit, inaccept q ung fwnd request nya, kc ayoq masama aq sa pananaw ng kht cnu, but, i'm planning to delete it after, kaso nag brown out, tas aun! d na aq nakapag YM! hahaiz.. kaya d q xa na delete kc nawala na ung nternet connection.. den morning came, d aq makatulog kaya ang aga q nag OL, i think 7am OL na aq, pwo ung kausap q dat tym si JESSA, ung isa q pang fwnd sa YM kc kinuwento nya na break na cla ng bf nya..sori to hear dat JESS, but i think it's for ur own good..kc d na din healthy ung relationship nyo..so much for dat issue, un ung totoo! den nag OL ung x q, at sumunod na nag OL c MINE.. wen my x cnt me pm sabi q sori i'm talking to my bf now.. sabi nya huh? bf? sabi q, yup! bye! but d pa din nya aq tinigilan sa kakatanong, kaya i told MINE na mag invisible mode nlng aq..tas nagalit xa! as in super galit! kc nakikipag usap pa daw pala aq sa x q?! my gawd! wat d heck! iniiwasan q na nga eh! tas sabihin pang ganun! gggrrr..nakaka imbyerna tlga! tas d pa naniniwala sa xplanation q..sa sobrang inis, d q napigilan umiyak tuloy aq! wew! waaahh nag nunumb tuloy kamay q..ganon kc aq pag aatakihin..pwo d q cnbi sa knya.. pwo buti nlng na control q... sakit ng dibdib q i swear! pwo pinipigilan q lng.. kc baka pagalitan aq ni mama qoh, at atakihin aq sa walang kwentang issue! sana maniwala naman c mine everytym may sasabihin aq sa knya... kc un ung totoo! at d aq nagccnungaling.. juz want to be honest wid him na nangungulit ung x q dat tym.. pwo naging ok din lahat...naniwala din xa..pwo hinintay pa tlga na umiyak aq bago xa naniwala! graveh! lufet! nweiz, he's talking to his bro too.. tas pinakita nya aq sa bro nya and vice versa..woot! naging masaya din ung usapan namin..happy now? yep definitely! den may new pix xa! kaya knuha q! ahahahaha..and uploaded it (ung pix na naka flipbook sa taas) nag dradrawing din xa.. ehhehehe mga walang magawa! ahahaah.. he's addicted to naruto or any anime.. den he also draw a portrait of me..wahahah pwo d mukhang aqoh..ewan q cnu! ahahah jowk lng mine...super sexy kc! ahahaha.. i'll be talking to him again tomorrow and looking forward to it.. i really enjoyed talking to him pwo wag lng xang magalit! ahahahha kc nqow! mukha tlga xang ewan! f nagtatampo..
on cloud nine now! ahahhaha in short im happy! i hope ganito nlng everyday! ehehhehe.. nakakataba ng heart! wooottt! ahahahaha... 5:17am MINE miscalled me.. den i received scads of msgs. from him thru ym kc naka i'm mobile ung isang account q..and wen i checked my fone dali2x aq tumayo at dumiretso na i ON ung laptop q to chat wid him! weeiii my prayers were answered! ahahahaha.. kc nung 2am na d aq makatulog i'm wishin and praying fervently na sana mag OL xa ngayon... and yes! ahahha nag OL nga xa! tenk u lord! God is so good! :) after how many years! ahhahaha jowk lng... i'm exaggerating it...lol... after 2 months of not chatting wid him kc he's always bc from his work, i've finally talked to him.. oh yeah! ganda ng simula ng new year qoh! ehhhee.. ooohh lalalalala LOOOVVVEEE is wonderful!!! :D aun, nag talk kami till 10am..ehehheeh ilang hrs. din aq nakababad sa net..ehehhe ok lng bsta makausap q xa..wink! he played d guitar, sweet enuf? ahahah oh yeah! d lng un! kumanta pa xa! (ryt here waiting, u raise me up, wen u say nothing at ol, at hey der delilah) woot! nag concert ung BF q! ahahaahahahha..nag chat din kami sandali ng mom nya..waaahh.. rigor mortis mode again! ahahahaa.. as in! nahihiya pa din aq..pwo mas nahihiya aq nung nakausap q sa fone ung mom nya...ahhaahhah...i also saw his fwnd..i juz greeted his mom and his fwnd...sakit ng dibdib q kakatawa kc ung mom q nakipag chat din sa bf q! waaahh.. ahahahaha.. naglokohan pa kami ni mama ano daw itatawag nya MINE ba din daw? wahahha cra tlga! aq lng may ryt na tawagin xang MINE.wahahahahah.. jowk! den 10am natapos na din usapan namin... natulog aq ulit..kc ang aga q nagcng! ahahahha.. i forgot na mag breakfast so brunch nlng aq..breakfast at lunch! ehehehhe.. den nag OL aq ulit, and walllaaahh! ahahahha.. ung sister nya naman nakausap q.. wooot! we had our conference sa YM! ahahhaah galing! close2x na kami..ehehehhe.. den nakisali din c MINE sandali sa conference.. lol.. we'll i juz get OL dat tym kc im bored sa hauz naloloka na tlga aq! ahahahha kain, internet, at tulog lng gnagawa q.. ehheehehe..d pa pala aq nakapag study ng lesson q! waaahhh hahahha.. wala aqng gana! kakapagod pa mag memorize..juz want to enjoy d break! ahahaah come wat may n2! weeeiii.. bilis ng panahon.. our 7th monthsary is coming! im looking forward to it! i can't still believe na aabot sa ganito ka tagal..ahahahha.. na break na nya ung record ng mga past x's qoh..ahhahaha.. bravo! sana xa na lord...:D ahahahha
we'll probably dis is my 1st post for 2009! HAPPY NEW YEAR GUYZ!!! ehhehhe how was ur new year? me? hhhmm.. i enjoyed my new year and for d first time we celebrate it juz d four of us (me, kuya, lil. sis, and my mom) since my dad is in saudi so he can't spent it wid us... haiz! buhay OFW! u'll definitely miss each oder, but im gettin used to it..nanibago lng aq kc wala ung relatives q sa iligan, mas masaya doon f we spent it der, and it's also our first tym here to celebrate new year and xmas at cdoc...fireworks display started at 10pm here, i tot 12 am na kc dami na nagpapaputok.. walang tigil ung putukan, and wen d clock strikes at 12am booom!! sobrang ingay! colorful na ng iskay! ahahahaha... except after 1:30 am coz my bro's fwnds w/c bcame also my fwnds, came to our hauz to have some drinks and bonding2x.. at 1st d pa aq nakisali sa knila kc im chatting wid my bez, rem, ef, vince, and oder fwnds in YM den after talking to dem naki join na din aq juz to talk to dem, d q inexpect na ganun ung mangyari..we had dis dare2x stuffs, and we had to drink tequilla and baileys! oh mehn! i'm not really used to get drunk! we'll i'm not really into it, but wallaaahh!!! ahhahaha i tried, and promised not to drink too much again! i only drink wine, keri q pa un! and i also tried drinking baileys or tequilla rose before, everytym we had our salo-salo at my tita's hauz but only a few sip of it.. but yesterday, wooottt!!! d q carry tlga! aahahaha.. dami q ata na inum! d q napansin.. waaahhh my biggest mortal sin ever! ahahahha.. splak! as in! i never noticed na nakatulog na pala aq..and d next morning i woke up, i was shocked to see my fone's clock it's already 10:30 am! waaahhh.. i even forgot to greet MINE..xo sori for dat... i was waiting for d network not to get bc since i really had a hard tym, making a call, or cnd msgs. on my cp! maybe bcoz ang bagal ng network! darn! and i even didn't noticed dat MINE cnd me msgs. thru YM, he greeted me...waaahhh huhuhu d q tuloy xa na chat! tsk2.. haiz! miss q pa naman xa.. i miss him so much! dat's y one of d rison y i'm making dis blog coz i can't sleep! haiz! hirap! i want him! ahahahha sobra! gggrrr..i'm craving for him! wahahhaha...
nweiz, got a new year's resolution lists now? wooaaahhh... OH! allergic ata aq dyan sa mga resolutions2x na ka churvahan! ahahahhahaha... i myt eating my words again! d hell! ahahhaha.. as dey say "actions speak louder dan words ayt?" kaya cguro, gawin q nlng f ano sa tingin q ung tama, and forget ol d wrong doings and my silly acts last year, and my bad habits! 2009 nah! tym for me to change again! for d better of corz! eheheehe kau din ah?! ehhehehe... ok lng naman gumawa ng NY's resolution lists, f d nyo magawa ung nasa lists nyo may nxt year pa naman ulit! ahhahahaha try and try lng.. "to change" is a slow process but u can learn from it.. juz want to share dis tips for keeping ur NY's resolutions for 2009 (juz an advice) :
A lot of remarkable and unforgettable things come my way this year. Juz want to thank everyone for taking part of it. Let's face d new year wid a smyl in our hearts. LIVE. LAUGH. and LOVE. HAPPY NEW YEAR TO OL!
I'm still looking forward to another year of friendship wid u guyz!..and to MINE, anoder memorable moment full of love and hope for dis year! may our love keep growing as d yrs. come, hoping to have a long and lasting relationship wid you.. 2008has never been dis great if not for you and also to bez, and to ol my fwnds out der!
May you have peace n ur heart, gud health n ur body, wealth n ur lyf, joy n ur Home, and may u always b blesed wid dis priceless treasures dis season...
tenx for everything guyz! im glad to have u around!
I miss my bez! ehehehhe..sayang d kami nagkta, ilang yrs na din! wwwooott! saklap! ehehehhe.. haiz... nweiz, i had a great mownin today! ahahaha one word to describe it ol? flabbergasted! ahhahaha.. and i'm SUPER HAPPY wid ol his efforts! i was still sleeping at dat tym wen my fone rang, and i never expect that MINE wud call me, 7:53 am he called me! my voice still sux! but nweiz, ahahahha... im touched! aw! ehehehe... coz he still prioritize to buy a new telephone so he cud call me!ahahahah spoiled much? aw! i guez! wahhahaha.. we juz miss ich oder dat much! finally he cud call me nah! coz ok na fone nla..weeeii.. THANK YOU SO MUCH MINE!!! xoxo
Saturday, December 27, 2008
xmas 08' @ 12/27/2008 05:24:00 PM
waaahh ang tagal q na din d nakapag update ng blog q! eheehe.. nweiz.. im juz gettin lazy dis past few days coz im not feeling well.. i'm sick! wata curse! i had fever,cough and colds and my voice is already fading.. kaya gnawa q,wenever i want to say sumthing i juz wrote it on a piece of paper! ahahhaa.. ang weird! nweiz! CHRISTMAS 2008 is over! yeah! waiting for new year 09 again! weeeiii.. updates for d past days? well here's my list..
Dec. 22 - i had my fotoshoot.. sssshhh..it's a secret! ahahahha..and dito nag start lahat kung bakit aq nagkasakit! kc naman, ang tagal ng taxi! tsk2.. no one will drive for me to pick me up, kaya nag taxi nlng aq...almost 1 hr. din aq naghintay..saklap! waaahh..dami kc tao dat tym and sobrang lamig na ng gabi! kaya pagdating q sa hauz, almost 12am nah! kaya aun! ung result d next mownin? lagnat, cpon at ubo! kaya d na aq nag join again for our nxt fotoshoot q na naka sked. nag quit nlng aq! malas! i called MINE at 12:14 am.. waaahh miss him terribly.. huhuhu..... :[ d pa din kc ayos ung fone nla..and at 9 pm i called him again juz to wake him up..
Dec. 23 - even if im not feeling well, i still went to d mall para samahan mom q mag grocery for our noche buena..as always! ehhehe.. and we're planning na mag face paint kami during xmas! kaya aun, bumili din kami ng mga materials! and my relatives from iligan came to cdo to celebrate our xmas wid us! exciting!
Dec. 24 - wyl waiting for d clock to strike at 12am para mag hintay ng xmas, we decided to have our face paint! weeeii luckily, artist din pala c kuya! ahahhahaha.. and ung cuzn q hilig tlga nya ung painting..so cla dalawa ung make up artist namin.. sobrang saya! nakipagsabayan din ung mom q, at mga tita q, and mga cuzns q, kaya naka facepaint mukha namin lahat! kewl! den we had our pictorials! d q na tlga knaya kc i'm still sick, nagluluha na nga mga mata q kc ang taas na ng lagnat q, tas hasle pa ung ubo at cpon q, kaya natulog muna aq wyl cla enjoy na enjoy nag pictorial! tsk! sobrang minalas tlga aq dis month! waaahhh.. den nung malapit na mga 12am nag start na ung fireworks! nagcng aq dahil sa ingay! and my mom checked me f ok lng ba aq? kc ang taas na ng lagnat q.. sabi q kaya q pa naman.. tas aun, kahit may lagnat, nakipagsabayan parin aq sa knila na i enjoy ung nyt na un! pic2x na naman..ehehehe...kahit namamaga na mata q kakaiyak! ahahhahaha..den 12am nag start na kami kumain! weeeiii walang diet2x! at walang bawal2x..ahahahaha.. naka video pa ung moment na un, nakakaenjoy kc naglolokohan kami sa cam, nagbibigay ng mga message ung tita q sa mga husband nla na nagtratabaho sa ibang bansa..den nag chat din cla wid my uncles, and ung papa q nung xmas tas nagtatawagan..so sad nga eh c MINE lng ung d nagpaparamdam! huhuhu.. kaya lumala lagnat q! ahahahaha jowk! sabi nga nla, d daw gamot kailangan q para gumaling! ahahahah c MINE lng daw ung gamot sa sakit q! ahahhaha cra tlga!
Dec. 25 - 12 am xmas naaahh!! nweiz, xo xad, kc d man lng nagtxt c MINE..huhuhu see? feeling q tuloy wala na aqng halaga sa knya.. kaya tinawagan q xa.. haiz! kht nag fafade na ung voice q, i tried to talk to him juz to greet him..ang tagal q nakapasok mag call sa knya! den lasing na ung mga boys, eh kami, nag inuman din, pwo wine lng, pwo konti lng knya q..ahahaha.. kc im still sick! wala din aq sa mood kumain, kc wala aqng nalalasahan dahil sa cpon at ubo q..waaahh malas! pwo masaya na din aq kc kahit wala papa q dis xmas, at ung mga tito q kc nasa ibang bansa cla, atleast nandito naman mga tita at cuzns q and c lolo at lola... 2pm kahit wala pa kaming pahinga at walang tulog, aun! dretso na naman kami, pumunta kami iligan! weeeiii.. my tito invited us na mag dinner kc gusto daw nya na magsama2x kami.. may handaan na naman! waaahh walang katapusang kainan! and im super happy! kc nag bonding2x na naman relatives q and andun din ung ibang cuzns q! weeeeiii..pic2x na naman daw for fs! ahahahah...we had our sleep over again at my tita's hauz sa ilgan, kc lasing na c lolo at d na kami makakauwi sa hauz namin sa iligan, kaya dun nlng kami nagpalipas ng gabi..11:37 pm mine called me d q ma recognize ung unang nakausap q, un pala dad nya! i tot wrong nos. ahahahha.. tas hrap din aq makapagsalita dat tym kc walang wala na ung boses q! my gawd! chinicheck lng nya f ok na ba daw aq.. pwo naputol ung usapan namin, bigla kc nawala ung call nya..tsk2! sobrang miss q pa naman xa! nabitin tuloy aq!
Dec. 26 - 7:26 am i called him for a wyl juz to asked f bat d xa tumawag ulit, kc naghihintay aq magdamag sa tawag nya! hmpf! hahaiz.. tas, nag explain xa, so aun, ok nlng ulit! hahaiz.. den invite na naman ung isa q pang tita na mag lunch kami sa hauz nla! ahahhaha..i told yah! walang katapusang kainan.. 1pm back to cdo na kami... huhuhu.. pwo i had fun wid dem...nakakamiss lng tlga ung relatives q sa iligan.. super close kc family namin...:D pagdating namin sa cdo, as in! tulog na aq agad! kc d im still sick until now! saklap! waaaahhh.. almost 1 wik nato! haiz! sana gagaling na aq! :[
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